The Giver's Heart [Mediumship Channel]

“I was just like you once. Eager to give from a fire that burned so hot in my belly I think I spent half my life in hell. My need to give would never stop. Even when I recognized I was giving too much, I would try to correct it by giving more. Continuously I would misuse my resources, handing my entire life away.

When I would get weary of feeling expended, or when I would fill myself with regret for all the giving I gave, I would raise my fists in the air and tether my heart in its cage declaring, "Never again!” ...until I came across a bucket needing a coin. A dog needing a pat. A child, bread. And one by one I would offer what I could because the giving heart doesn't identify with rules and boundaries. It doesn't quantify its export. The giving heart serves one purpose and one purpose only: to give.

It is the human condition that prevents the adaptation of the giving heart from growing into something powerful. My community didn't shield the Givers from abuse. It didn't help us navigate through the many lessons of boundaries and giving-fulfillment. Instead, Givers were scorned and challenged, my own heart's strings yanked on until they were no longer taught and formed, but loose and incapable.

How horrible is this fate? To be called insufferable for kindness? I ask you because you know. I ask you because you have a giving heart. And yet, in all this time that has passed between you and I, the giver still does not carry the prestige of identity, but instead, are branded by the hallmark of a broken heart.”

Stories from the Dead
Mediumship channel through Jamie Homeister