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Spider Medicine: The Storytellers

Black Widow bit me. She stood 10' tall in my living room, her back grazing the ceiling in rhythm with her breath. She hunched downward, bending her massive frame to meet me face-to-face, perhaps to show me my image reflected a thousand times in her own.

"This is sacred space here," I state firmly. "Only those of the highest and the best are welcome." She didn't move. She didn't flinch an inch. Instead, she held her ground and commanded that I get on her frequency. Her level. I understood very quickly that I had a guest in my home.

"Okay, Grandmother Spider, I see you and I acknowledge your presence. What is it that you want me to know?"

Satisfied, she shrank to the size of a penny and began to climb a single thread of gold.

"All stories of the ancient ones are stored in the threads of the Spider,” she said. "Like strands of your DNA, we hold the records of these tellings and help spin the strands of thoughts into a complex but cohesive structure.

All the great tellings are retellings the Story-makers adapted. The Story-makers must learn to come forth in new ways to reach the people of their times."

The widow spider reached to top of golden silk, a thread tied to the finger of an Abuela in the sky. Grandmother Spider climbed into Abuelas palm; Abuela swallowed her whole. As she opened her mouth a long, pink tongue unfurled. Hundreds of thousands baby widow spiders poured from her belly, crawling down her arms and hands. Each spun their own golden thread and dangled from her fingers, lowering themselves onto the people of the earth.

With the spiders bite, a human would become intoxicated by a gift of Creation; an idea, a solution, or story new to them. Where some acted on this inspiration others stagnated, lulled into stagnation from a false fantasy of perfection, followed by fear of an unjust lost due to theft by the unscrupulous or just poor timing. 

To those who chose to store the idea in fantasy or in fear, the widow spider would bare a red hourglass: their time was up and the intensity of the medicine began to wane. No longer were the perfect words present. No longer was the idea whole. The Spider's toxin, a gift of creation and innovation, had begun to wane from the mind of the living.

To those that honored Spider’s medicine with actions to shape the dream, they would receive more attention and more inspiration until all the singular strands of thought had been spun into a beautiful web capable of nourishing life on its own.

We Have a Responsibility to the Dream

I understand how hard it is.
I know what it feels like to wish for things that did not come,
to work for things that did not happen,
and pray for something that slips by just beyond your grasp.

I understand how quickly a heart grows weary by surviving on wishes alone
but I also know this:
there has been a gift in it all.

Under every crestfallen moment
and rug swept out from under my feet,
for every disappointment
and shooting star that burned away into the darkness,
there has been a reason why.

Just as I am responsible for pinning the dream to the dream board,
for following through with a phone call;
laying the extra brush stroke
or accepting the first kiss
I am equally responsible for taking the risk to dream again, and again.
Because our actions are born from dreams
and our life is born from actions.
I want to know that I dared to live a life rich with both.

-Jamie Homeister

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The Seeds to Our Life's Garden

Imagine a plant in front of you. It's just a little seeding, its stalk barely strong enough to support itself without bend. You unwrap its roots from its burlap binding and gently shake the loose soil away. The roots dangle; stretching, searching, breathing.

This little seedling has unlimited potential. It can grow to be as big as it wants, living for hundreds of years and come to house an entire ecosystem within its lifetime. This one seedling can easily affect, and change the lives of millions.

You want this seedling to grow. You want it to be whatever it wants to be. So you give it water and food, you give it sunlight and the space to spread its roots. You wouldn't ever think to look at this seedling and say, 'I know you're supposed to grow into an Oak, but I just don't think you're capable.' You wouldn't dream of telling it that it's too small, puny, or too insignificant to ever be what it was born to be. That its leaves will never reach beyond the canopy, and its roots would never split the earth... would you?

We carry seedlings like this in our hearts every day. They are our dreams and aspirations and help us reach the heights we were born to achieve. Fear only paralyzes the potential. I have planted so many new opportunities in poison, yet wondered why they never grew.

To water the seedling is to dream with it, not against it.
To feed it, offer kind words. Give it something good to grow on.
Sunshine beckons for opportunities—take action!
And most importantly, pick your soil carefully. Cultivate the ground with skills, experience, and education.

Remember, everything good takes time to grow. Seeing positive changes within your life and yourself are no different. May we all be so fortunate as to grow into our dreams.

-Jamie Homeister

I Choose

Marriage, partnerships and the trouble with both. It’s a topic I'm seeing over and over again. When someone's heart isn't being respected in their home, there isn't a thing in this world that they will experience that feels right or feels good. Call me progressive, but I believe when we say "I do", it really means, "I choose."

I choose to be a part of your challenges.
I choose to make an effort to see things for you from your perspective.
I choose to be a part of your journey however that takes form.
I choose to believe in the goodness you've shown me will continue.
I choose to give you the opportunity to right your wrongs.
I choose to help you when you fall; to be available and accessible when you need me (and even in all those times when you don't.)
I choose to be responsible about how I speak to you, and of you.
I choose to be a participant in your life and do my best to respect your growth, even if I don't understand it.
I choose to see this as a partnership, an honorable agreement between two who decide to try to learn all the hard stuff together.
And, I choose to retain the right to retract this agreement should you ever decide to stop choosing us and stop choosing me.

-Jamie Homeister